I know...I know...I am a slacker. Let's see, what has happened since I last posted. More problems with shady-neighbor-whore. To make a long story short I found her sneaking around to meet my husband (just happened to be driving by). After that things are a blur.......we got into a fight, I chased her ass thru town, we got into another fight, things suck with my husband, I quit my job (I work with shady-neighbor-whore too), I went back to my job because they wouldn't take my resignation AND because I thought it would be fun to make her see my face everyday! BITCH. And my husband got "let go" becasue of his antics. I no longer wear a wedding ring because my husband said the ring means nothing to him and admitted he takes it off when he is mad at me. So I said fuck it why should I wear it if it means nothing to him? We are living in the same house but I have no idea if we are still together or not. I don't know if I should be looking for a place in Mass or a new place here. Things are just so fucked up right now. I missed shelli's fucking fire, and I really needed to get drunk too! I just do not know where I am going mentally or physically right now. Oh and did I mention my 16 year old daughter moved up here with me? That is a good thing though, I have started calling her lilshel, she makes me laugh just like shelli, I think living with her for 8 or 9 months has rubbed off. Thank god my daughter is here, sometimes we just act stupid and laugh and laugh and laugh, I need that! So there you have it in a nutshell...the volcano has erupted!
posted by Dirty Little Secret........... at 8:40 AM
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"and admitted he takes it off when he is mad at me"
Mine did that too. But he didn't admit that it was for that, he made up long complicated stories about having to clean up something and leaving the ring on the sink, blablabla... I thought he did it to "cruise" girls and had "forgotten" to put it back on when I was seeing him (passive-aggressive crap).
Jeeze, I wish you weren't in that situation! I know first hand how it feels and I wouldn't want that for you or anyone!
I will find a place for you....
you need to get your ass here.
The longer you are there the more miserable you are going to be....
Oh, and we need to catch up cuz I didn't even know you went back to that rumor mill to work.
*hug*
go back to Shelli!!
As much as I hate saying 'you should' (cuz hearing it drives me up the walls myself, and makes me feel judged), I think that you should *cringes* leave him. You've given him so many chances yet he cheats on you (whether physically - which sure looks like it - or "simply" emptionally), he lets you be his financial support, he doesn't respect you and tells you to your face... I think you deserve so much better, or at least you deserve not to live in this constant climate of psychological/financial abuse.
But, this said, I know first hand that commenting from the outside can be a lot easier than dealing with the situation when you're the one stuck in it, so whatever you do, however much time you need, however much you need to vent or be vulnerable or whatever, I'm here for you and _will not_ not judge you.
You're a wonderful person no matter what, you're just confused as to what is best for you, and in pain. It doesn't reflect badly on you, no matter what you choose.
Damn it feels good to be a gangsta .........thats your theme song from Office space
Hey, you wonderful, strong, determined, brave & caring mom, happy Mother's Day! :)
What Shellibells said!
:)
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