Keep Holding On When My Brain's Ticking Like A Bomb
This sentence fits me right now. I don't know why I feel the way I do. I feel like driving fast with the radio blasting. I feel like getting drunk and dancing on tables. I feel self destructive today. I feel like I have a volcano churning inside me wanting to spew hot molten lava everywhere! Honestly I feel like doing something bad. Not bad as in hurt myself or break the law, well except for the driving fast thing. Bad as in wild. WILD! I am restraining my wild inner person today. I think I need to go to Shell's fire and let loose! We'll see.
Keep holding on
When my brain's tickin' like a bomb
Wait
I'm coming undone
Unlaced
I'm coming undone
Too late
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong
So delicate
Wait
I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong
So delicate
This sentence fits me right now. I don't know why I feel the way I do. I feel like driving fast with the radio blasting. I feel like getting drunk and dancing on tables. I feel self destructive today. I feel like I have a volcano churning inside me wanting to spew hot molten lava everywhere! Honestly I feel like doing something bad. Not bad as in hurt myself or break the law, well except for the driving fast thing. Bad as in wild. WILD! I am restraining my wild inner person today. I think I need to go to Shell's fire and let loose! We'll see.
Keep holding on
When my brain's tickin' like a bomb
Wait
I'm coming undone
Unlaced
I'm coming undone
Too late
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong
So delicate
Wait
I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong
So delicate
posted by Dirty Little Secret........... at 10:46 AM
7 Comments:
Listening to angry/fast music helps me to ride out those moods (The Offspring is particularly good for me), and cleaning too (I do it furiously until I'm tired - I guess exercise might do it to... ha! As if I'd do that-... mind you nobody had better be in my way when I'm like that!) ;) Short of that, doing something fun with a friend helps too
but you are declining my invitation :( ***sobs***
I wish you'd come. You'd not regret it...for sure. I'd make you happy sista, in a new york second...(and damn thats fast) serious i gotcha back anytime girlfriend...
You should not have to babysit...I understand your luv but I feel sad for you. I hope someday you see how much happier you can be.
Lotsa luv xoxo
SB
Shelli you almost made me cry! I know I can be happier, but I am afraid. What if in 6 months I regret it?
You won't.
Believe me.
You won't regret a god damned thing.
We heart you.
You deserve to be happy.
I don't know what you are going through and I don't know you IRL but I know that much.
You won't regret it.
You won't.
If you think you will regret it then you do what YOU gotta do for you...I luv you no matter what.
I think it will be a challenge...at first. But I guarantee if I ask you in 1 year on a scale of one to ten how happy you are you will at least give me an 8, ok, a 7? And right now...you are at a big FAT ZERO!!!
You have my word.
xo
You know no different, that is why you are scared....oh, and what pissy said.
and more hugs!
omg i keep thinking of more things to say, i hadn't realized you responded to my comment until just now...
you no what i went thru, i don't regret it for a new york minute...even after the fallbacks...and all the others, i'm still happy i did what i did for me and my kid.
and i'm a poet now too. ;)
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